Ya Allah, give me strength

Its hard to say goodbye to someone you love. No matter you try to forget the past, it just dont happened in a blink. Though I know thats the best thing in life... to say 'I have to move on, Sayang', but it just dont happen. I'm still stuck with you and thinking a lot about you. My life is all about you, my dear... and I just can't understand why its happening to us.

Really, i wish i can turn back time and say no to your proposal, say no to your love, say no to many things that we did together... going out together, spending times, dreaming of you and me having a happy family...but it's all lie... it's a lie.. a white lie... why oh why????

But, whatever the question is... i just have to seek who i am ... i loose my hope, my dream, my job and everything at the same time..but what can I do.. there's nothing I can do now...except to move on and say Alhamdulillah... its all happened for a reason...

With Open Heart

We hear so many words of wisdom on how to heal our hearts. Nevertheless, I've been there and done with all the things involving heart... but let alone bypass or any surgical operation due to heart problem :) And, I find that it's easier to comfort others rather than myself. It's easier to make up other people minds' rather than making up my mind over small things or bigger things in my life. There's so many gray areas for me to find out and loving the sense of it.

I'm not sure why I fondly threw the 'With Open Heart' as the title for my first post. Probably, I'm in the midst of burdening my mind with an unsolved mystery. Still I don't think sinking my way along the line is my option. Same goes to my daily life, I always dream for miracles. Miracles that need me to work hard for it. Miracles that won't melt like my 'Cadbury under the hot sun'. It won't melt and it wont disappear from my life.

Even I'm still jumping up and down (ughhh, totally exaggerate it) trying to figure out why I started to write back, it still leave a blank and blank dash.... and its totally blank. All i knew is I want to be part of many people life and giving the hope for others not to loose hope in our life....MasyaAllah...